squirrel, to be honest with you, i like you and don't really care who likes how i feel or what i may say, but i'm speaking to you right now. i am rusty edwards talking to you, not slider mcgee (stage name i made up, b/c i thought it sounded kool.) point is regardless of how i think you're a good guy behind the pills or drink, there has to be some "tough love" shown to you both on here and possibly away from here. trust me, my friend i've been there where u are and hell no it aint easy, but there comes a point in time that only YOU can decide what u need 2 do. don't care who knows it or thinks i'm weak b/c of it but i suffer from anxiety and panic attacks occasionally and during those times is when i was most prone to pop a pill and drink my usual case a day, hell i'd eat dog crap if it relieved my issue at hand, but i cannot resort 2 my old ways b/c i know the consequences. buddy, we've had some great browser races and yes i know it's ONLY when u are sober..can tell by your driving. honestly there's been times when i couldn't shake u and other times no way in hell i could get by you clean. now, i don't run any leagues and lucky to run vlr race sunday night once a week, but if i did my tough love for u would be to suspend you. you have been given numerous chances to clean up your act, but you still come back and do the same thing over and over. if you want to talk to me any feel free to message me on yahoo...rusty29385.